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I need to stop tormenting myself, but when everything else around seems to be going wrong, I dig myself deeper into fandom. It’s therapy. I’ve said that before. I won’t change, and I’m not trying to change. I love these robots and sometimes I wish I could just go live in their universe rather than this reality. Anyways. That’s actually beside the point of this ramble. I hate that I can’t back off of one area of fandom to save myself from getting spoiled. I’m getting too sucked into AOE. I want to be surprised when I go see it, and I’m starting to know too many things, because of my supreme curiosity and the way I haven’t been filtering the things I read about it lately. =/ I was doing so well when the first reports started to trickle out. I’d ignore things. Then Lockdown happened. Now, I read the word ‘Lockdown’ and nope... can’t ignore. I need to just stop. Cut off TFW2005 from my computer until after I’ve seen the movie since I can’t stop my addiction. Should take a hiatus from Tumblr too, as I’m sure more stuff will start popping up over there as the time gets closer. That will be more difficult, as I enjoy surfing through the artwork and sillies that I find that brighten my day. I need to suck it up, though. Either suck it up or stop whining about spoilers. >.< Yes, I probably need help. And, yes, I may be slightly obsessed. Sue me. xD My plan of action is cut those two things off for a while, to stick to the comics for my canon fix, and dig deeper into my fics to save myself from disappointment. That will be better for me, and I’ll be happier going to see the movie when it’s released. ^^ *Problem solving like a boss*
I’m sure the fact that I’m on my period doesn’t help all the feelings I keep having pertaining to real life
Those things aside, I’m plugging away at the first chapter of the Lockdown origin fun. I’m calling the fic, ‘What Shapes Us’. ^^ I’m super happy with what I’ve written so far, so I can’t wait to share. Once I complete the chapter, I’m going to be good and go back to finish ‘Home is Where the Spark is’. I just needed to address some of my ideas that I had for the beginning of Locky’s story. ^^;
