We drift inside each other...

[princess_starscream]

I need to stop tormenting myself, but when everything else around seems to be going wrong, I dig myself deeper into fandom. It’s therapy. I’ve said that before. I won’t change, and I’m not trying to change. I love these robots and sometimes I wish I could just go live in their universe rather than this reality. Anyways. That’s actually beside the point of this ramble. I hate that I can’t back off of one area of fandom to save myself from getting spoiled. I’m getting too sucked into AOE. I want to be surprised when I go see it, and I’m starting to know too many things, because of my supreme curiosity and the way I haven’t been filtering the things I read about it lately. =/ I was doing so well when the first reports started to trickle out. I’d ignore things. Then Lockdown happened. Now, I read the word ‘Lockdown’ and nope... can’t ignore. I need to just stop. Cut off TFW2005 from my computer until after I’ve seen the movie since I can’t stop my addiction. Should take a hiatus from Tumblr too, as I’m sure more stuff will start popping up over there as the time gets closer. That will be more difficult, as I enjoy surfing through the artwork and sillies that I find that brighten my day. I need to suck it up, though. Either suck it up or stop whining about spoilers. >.< Yes, I probably need help. And, yes, I may be slightly obsessed. Sue me. xD My plan of action is cut those two things off for a while, to stick to the comics for my canon fix, and dig deeper into my fics to save myself from disappointment. That will be better for me, and I’ll be happier going to see the movie when it’s released. ^^ *Problem solving like a boss*

I’m sure the fact that I’m on my period doesn’t help all the feelings I keep having pertaining to real life and fandom. *Is one big bundle of emotions* D=

Those things aside, I’m plugging away at the first chapter of the Lockdown origin fun. I’m calling the fic, ‘What Shapes Us’. ^^ I’m super happy with what I’ve written so far, so I can’t wait to share. Once I complete the chapter, I’m going to be good and go back to finish ‘Home is Where the Spark is’. I just needed to address some of my ideas that I had for the beginning of Locky’s story. ^^;

Comments

[decepticon_mistress]

I haven't really been paying too much attention to all the AOE news. I maybe paid attention to only a small handful of news stories concerning things like what new characters will appear, who's doing the score, and which voice actors are returning. That's about it. Rest of the time when I go onto TFW2005, I just go straight to getting caught up on all the Funnies I subscribed to and check out the social groups I'm in before I log off and spend the rest of my time on Dreamwidth.

Sorry to hear that you're one big bundle of emotions. =( If it makes you feel better, there's been quite a few days this month where I ended up feeling depressed -- at least a few nights I did go to bed and cried for a considerable amount of time before I either fell asleep or grabbed my headphones to listen to Slipknot in order to lull me to sleep. Think what set me off was that one of my co-workers -- who happens to be gay and is one of the few real-life people who knows I'm a lesbian -- told me he hoped that I would find a special lady someday after he told me that his one-year anniversary with his boyfriend is coming up.

Ooooh, can't wait to read Locky's story! That is, once you're done with your current multi-chapter fic. xD

[princess_starscream]

That's what I was trying to do too, but Locks is gripping a hold of me and not allowing me to ignore things so easily. xD I did just move TFW off my viewing field, so I wouldn't be tempted anymore. We'll see how it goes. xP

I'm just meeeeeeh. I can't control anything that's going on with me. I've been snappy and ridiculous. Then crying over silly shit. I hate being like that. >.>

You'll get to read the first chapter here in a few days. :3

[decepticon_mistress]

Curse that Lockdown, LOL! xD Hope you won't cave into temptation and check out TFW for any AOE Lockdown stuff.

There were a couple times I got very irritable at work earlier this week because of my period. I came pretty close to snapping at one of my supervisors in regards to my having to train a new person. >.< For sure, I can't control myself when depressing thoughts filter into my mind. My co-worker even caught me crying in my car, which was the last thing I wanted, but he did give me a hug and made me laugh.

Sweet! 8D

[princess_starscream]

Aaaaa! You went and used an icon too! xP *Grabs Locks and buries him in snuggles as he struggles* x3 No, I need help. This mech is gonna end me with the feels he gives me. I won't cave with TFW. I won't! *Locks self up until June 25/25th.* Tell me about any awesome non-AOE news.

I snapped at the store manager once, but he and I didn't see eye to eye anyway. >.> That sucks, but at least he was able to comfort you. ^^

=D

[decepticon_mistress]

Whoops, sorry about that. xD

Yeah. I'm just thankful to have such a co-worker like him. I don't get to see him at work as often as I used to in the past since they got me working afternoons during the week, but when I do see him I try my best to say hi and chat with him before I punch in for the day and such.

[princess_starscream]

Lulz! Nu-uh! You did on purpose. :3

It certainly helps. And it gives you something to look forward to at work when everything else turns shitty. Least that's how I viewed the several people I liked at my old jobs.

[decepticon_mistress]

Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaybe...

Yeah.

[princess_starscream]

*Eyes you* I'm on to you!

[decepticon_mistress]

Eeep. *Slowly backs away*

[dickgrayson]

Lol I understand! I am glad you found a way to have what you want. And after you will have so much fun seeing all the art. :D

I look forward to the story(s)! :D